Happy New Year! On Friday, January 8th, I'm dropping perhaps the most important music video of the year. It is the song Questions from the Change My mind album. It explains how I tried to fill the empty void inside of me by "chasing the wind" but couldn't (Ecclesiastes chapters 3 and 4). But it didn't end there....

Let me explain: For decades, I chased others' respect and admiration. I chased fame, money and titles. I bent myself backwards to be nice to people and tried to be a good person. But it all fell apart and I felt lonely, useless and worthless. Stress broke me and I started searching for answers to my existential questions.

Where could I find rest? How could I find purpose and meaning? As soon as I tried things fell apart. The good things I did weren't always appreciated. The people I had trusted left me hanging. Whatever I tried to do was swept away nby the next wave. I felt alone, used and worthless.

Then I gave up and started questioning my faith as well. I was apathetic. Finally, I just gave up and decided to receive God's unconditional love. I decided to agree with what He said about me in the Bible even when I didn't understand it in my head. He said He loved me where I was, died for us all when we were His enemies...in all my brokenness I didn't have any more arrogance left. I "took the dive". Your heart knows where to find the answers.....

V1:

Here is the text from the song.

Been chasing the wind for far too long

Testing how high I can fly to prove the haters wrong

So empty inside, my questions and I

I heard all my life that you're a lie,

That reality's only the things that I can see with my eyes,

That I am my own God,

I question it all, now

Chorus:

Are you there? Do you care?

For someone like me who just wants to be free,

But who's treated you like air

Are you there? Do you care?

For someone like me who just wants to be free,

But who's treated you like air

Are you there?

V2:

All this confusion in my head,

Unanswered questions swarm like bees around my bed

They've made me a prisoner

O, I want to be free

I face all of my fears and I take the dive

Off of the cliff I've clung to most of my life

I've nothing to lose now,

I'm ready to choose now

Are you there? Do you care?

For someone like me who just wants to be free,

Tho’ I’ve treated you like air

Are you there? Do you care?

For someone like me who just wants to be free,

Tho’ I’ve treated you like air

Are you there?

Stick:

Then, my heart started screaming -

It silenced my mind

For a moment I left all my questions behind

I dropped my defences

you opened my eyes to see

That's when I found you….

Outro:

You're the way

You're the truth

And the life I was searching for all the time and I

I'll never turn back,

Now that I've changed my mind

I am free to be me

And my heart and mind are one, yes they believe

I never knew how good it could be

Through the years you kept knocking upon my door

When I finally opened,

I couldn't ignore your love

And you changed everything

Don't miss my story in this video. It drops at 12 noon EST/18.00 CET on January 8th on YouTube.

I hope this video inspires you greatly as we go into 2021!

Love,

Liz